That's what I'm saying a lot these days.
It's slowly becoming a little too much for me...

Anyway, so I was home for a week and a few days, most of the time I have to admit, I spent playing Computer since at home is the only place where I can (my Internet here is to crappy for any online games)
Then the last three days of last week I "worked", that is to say; I sat at a table in an almost empty room for 8 hours playing Solitair, Minesweeper and Pinball (my actual job was to watch students at a physical therapy school do their preparation for a practical exam)... Contrary to my expectations there was no wireless lan internet available so I was submitted to utter boredom.
I had planned to do some stuff for my University projects, but there was almost nothing I could do without internet (scary sometimes, isn't it?) All I mananged to do was write my four textes for Spanish class.
Of course, now that I'm back I have a guilty conscience for doing almost nothing.

It's roughly two weeks until semester break and I still have SO much to do... I have to edit the film material for a presentation, I have to think up something for a project about ideology speech, I have to study for three exams (Spanish, Japanese and Resource methods) and within my semester break I have to write two reports and one thesis paper (which I still need to accumulate material on)...Yay!
The stress is getting to me, I can feel it and everyone around me too. I'm reeeeaaally irritable and easily annoyed by almost anything and anyone these days. I blow up and snap at people pretty fast too, which I normally don't do at all (I think...).

I just hope I can get all this over with before I go into nervous breakdown or kill someone for asking me what time it is...

Anyway, hopefully see ya soon!

...and it's not been the best for me. =/

I'm already slacking in updating this thing, damnit.
Anyway last week some rather unpleasant things happened.
First off, there was a person whom I was slowly getting closer to for about half a year now... it's all nice and everything, BUT... I had seen a picture of him (which was a few years old) and last week I got to see a recent one. To say the least, I was a bit shocked. How much can a person change in a couple of years?! I may sound superficial now but it is an essential part of "love" for me that the person in question looks at least somewhat pleasant to my eye...
Anyway, I'm kinda still thinking about what to do now.
The whole thing sorta ruined my mood for a few days last week, I didn't go to Karaoke with the others either.
What's more, things started to happen to my WoW guild/raid. It's been a few weeks already that we had been having troubles getting together a full raid group especially since our raid leader was AWOL. Supposedly, he informed his second in command about his situation but that one seemed to know as much as we did. So when on Wednesday the RL again did not show up for the raid a few people left us altogether. Furthermore, rumors about the whole "why and where" had started to spread. I will not relay the whole story as it's a rather private matter but shockingly, the whole thing turned out to be true. I'm utterly disappointed with him (the RL) because I always had the highest respect for him and now I learn of such stories...
Well, after hearing all that and seeing people leaving the raid I kinda panicked and went looking for a new one. (I might have to mention that something almost exactly like this happened to my last raid too and the outcome was disastrous) Thankfully, some good friends set me straight the next day and told me that most of the raid wants to continue. So I stayed and today will be my first 25man raid in a couple of weeks (apart from some that were too chaotic to be called that)
Right now, I am quite hopeful that everything will be fine in the end.

That doesn't sound that bad, right? Well the weekend was, what ruined my week altogether. I drove home on Friday for an extended weekend. My parents were away for that weekend so I pretty much had the whole house to myself and was prepared for a few nice and relaxed days.
Only that right on 10pm on Friday...the Internet was gone!!! And it didn't come back the whole weekend. It was the epitome of boredom!!!!
Well, I ended up sleeping till lunchtime each day and tried to keep myself entertained by watching old videos on my hard drive or playing Warcraft3. Also, on Sunday I went to my Grandma for lunch and after that had a lot of fun with some friends playing Wii (sports, Rayman Raving Rabbits). If that hadn't been I swear I would have died of boredom...

Now I'm back home in Halle WITH Internet (albeit it's a crappy line) and looking at the last 1 1/2 months of my second semester ... kinda scary that it's over so soon and I haven't finished any of my projects and other things yet. WAAAAAAH!!! (imagine screaming Raving Rabbit here)

Anyway, I'm trying to keep up my mood like I always do and to muster up the motivation to work on my assignments.
So much for now.

Mata ne~

I don't know why but I feel more tired than usual even though I didn't do that much today.

First, Japanese in the morning (which I still think is against the Geneva Conventions...), then "hilfsmittel" (which really isn't helpful at all since our tutor is less than incompetent) and after a 2h break (in which I returned home and changed clothes...damn hot day) Spanish and a meeting with my project partner. I don't know why I am so tired now...
Though, there might be a reason, however inplausible it may sound. Last night I dreamed that I didn't sleep all night and strangely in the morning I did not feel rested at all... reeeeaally weird!
Anyway, so I was a little bored in the evening and opened WoW, but ended up simply playing the little games Popcap offers as free addons. Bejeweled and Peggle! They are totally fun and somewhat addictive XD
Apropos games. Thursday two weeks ago, I borrowed a PS2 game from a friend which is called "Shadow of the Colossus" (Wanda to Kyouzo in Japanese). It is (for me) by far the most beautiful game available for PS2. It has such a wonderful scenery and you can really feel the loneliness when you ride your horse over the seemingly endless plains, mountains, valleys, wodds and deserts in search of one of the 16 colossi (who are REALLY colossal btw) you are supposed to kill to revive your dead girlfriend. (There, I put the whole story in ONE sentence! ^^)
At the same time, whenever you kill one of those strangely beautiful creatures you always feel a pang of guilt and a dread that what you are doing might not be a good thing at all...(SPOILER: which turns out to be right in the end). As you can see, I am still enthralled with the game although I already finished it last Thursday. I also downloaded the soundtrack which is really well made and athmospheric! Everytime I listen to it I relive the fights and the experience of the game.
Anyway, enough about that already ^^

I will try and go to sleep a little earlier today (I usually fail at going to sleep before 2am or so)...

Oyasumi~

PS.: title means something like "I'm beat"

I feel like I'm reaching my breaking point...
Really, I can't take all this much longer. The last weeks, apart from some nice events, have been horror for me. Especially this last week... I hate school, I really do. I so can't wait to finish but on the other hand I'm scared outta my wits by the ever closer approaching final exams. All this pressure makes it hard to breath sometimes and I more and more often find myself on the brink of crying.
I haven't felt like crying so much in the last ten years of my life like I have in the last three months...
The smallest things can pull me down so much these days... sometimes I feel like having a rage attack and a crying fit at the same time and for almost no reason at all. E.g. this Monday I walked home in the dark from the bus station. It was raining and storming (I HATE rain and wind) and I had my hood over my head and could only see like two meter in front of me. And every time I looked up to see how far I've come it seemed I just hadn't gotten any further... the way got longer and longer...I almost cried out of despair that time. Just think about it! That is so pathetic... cry because your way home seemingly gets longer and longer, how much deeper can one sink? Honestly, I feel like I'm so deep down in a hole that I gotta look up to see the bottom -____-
I just hope I get over this soon... fortunately, as much as small things can pull me down they can cheer me up too. So maybe, I'll be able to see a silver lining by mid of next week (when all the school tests are over for a while). Or else I might go into a real depression, I don't know...

Never thought I'd write something like this, I felt so strong all the time. People believe I am strong...hardened, almost cold hearted. But that is only what I make them believe. It is saddening to think of how very few people really know me.

-Lyrics of the Day-
Bruce Dickinson ~ Tears of the Dragon

"For too long now
There were secrets in my mind
For too long now
There were things I should have said
In the darkness
I was stumbling for the door
To find a reason
To find the time, the place, the hour

Waiting for the winter sun
And the cold light of day
The misty ghost of childhood fears
The pressure is building
And I can't stay away

I throw myself into the sea
Release the wave
Let it wash over me
To face the fear
I once believed
The tears of the dragon
For you and for me

Where I was
I had wings that couldn't fly
Where I was
I had tears I couldn't cry
My emotions
Frozen in an icy lake
I couldn't feel them
Until the ice began to break

I have no power over this
You know I'm afraid
The walls I built are crumbling
The water is moving
I'm slipping away

Slowly I awake
Slowly I rise
The walls I built are crumbling
The water is moving
I'm slipping away"

This song reflects my feelings, my mood, myself so much it's almost creepy...
I once wrote a lyric that resembles this in quite a few points.

Yeah...So I got drunk for the first time in my life.
How did that happen? Here's the story: I got home after working out in the gym on Friday and my Mom asked me if I would like to come with them (them being my parents) to the beverage chandler (who happens to be a friend of my father's) on the street adjacent to ours and taste their not enetirely fermented white wine (called "Federweißer") and Onion cake and I said 'Yeah, why not.'
So we got there and I found that stuff tasted pretty good but also had quite some volumes already (11vol.). So after the second glass I thought it was enough. But somehow everytime I finished a glass someone would have it refilled and I was kinda forced to drink up ^^° Plus, I got two so called "kleiner Feigling" (20vol.)added to the pool O.o So I ended up with 5 glasses of Federweißer and two Kleiner Feigling. Yeah, I felt good ^^ My head was kinda spinning and I was talking funny, my tongue being much more loose than normal.
But I wasn't the only one, mind you. My Dad got totally sloshed with schnapps. He couldn´t help it, either ^^
So around 9pm we went home... or better, we planned on going. Cuz ,yeah, my Dad went on a little detour to our good friends and neighbors and somehow then decided to stay there O.o
So in the end, I went ahead of them and got home eventually ^^ I still could walk pretty good, of course.
When I came home, I decided to go online for a while and that I did. I was on in IRC but somehow it was somewhat hard coordinating my fingers with my laptop's keyboard. I ended up sending unfinished messages and typing sentences three times before I got them right. Oh yeah, people found that very funny *lol*
As the world and my head were still spinning I decided to go to bed... well, I didn´t stay there long. I went to the bathroom and... yeah you can imagine the rest *cough cough*
Eventually, my Mom got home too(having brought my Dad with some help of our neighbor)and found me empyting my stomach into the bath tub. She handed me a bucket and guided me back into bed. After that, I slept pretty well and I felt nothing of the whole ordeal in the morning whereas my Dad had a full-blown hangover *snickers* Lucky me!

Well, that´s it. My first time drunk and it wasn´t so bad at all. A funny feeling and well...the throwing-up wasn´t *that* bad, either. So I guess, there really is a first time for everything ^^
At least now I know my limits.

Never mind that title...^^°

Right...I´ve been quiet for a few days cuz I was kinda busy, shouldn´t even sit here right now cuz I still have to learn for two tests tomorrow (chemistry and history) but I really felt like typing something up now and I´m waiting for the shower to be free X)

So what happened over the weekend?
Not much actually. Thursday and Friday I spent mostly relaxing, drawing, reading and watchin TV. On Thursday night I happened to see "The Twilight Zone" which I don´t see very often since it runs that late. Anyways, I saw an episode that I´d actually seen already...(Sometimes I wonder why I always catch the same episodes when I watch a show that I normally can´t watch O.o It´s always like that!) But I didn´t care cuz I loved that particular ep! I like it that much that I´m now going to retell the story...or at least summ it up ^^ here ya go:

The story starts in a hospital right in the middle of an emergency operation. A young doctor who happened to be to that hospital for only two days did his best to save the life of a man with a gun shot wound. And in fact he succeeded. He went out of the OR right in time to receive the next emergency call being a suicide attempt. The nurse told him that man who had hung himself... but about 20 hours ago and he still was alive and ,considering the circumstances, well.
The young doc asked the patient for his name and he whispered "Death", of course the doc didn´t take him serious. As he checked on his patient later, he asked him once again who he was. "As I told you before...I´m the Death" the patient quitly replied, his voice still hoarse. The young doc didn´t believe him,(okay who would? ^^) but he kept talking to him, curious what could make a man commit suicide and claim he´s the Death. So he explained he was sick of it...thousands of years that he brought death to the world and he couldn´t stand it anymore so he decided to quit. At that point he almost had the doc convinced, by saying and showing him things that only Death in person could do (I´ll save my breath on those). So after Death said he wanted to quit the Doc looked at him curiously and asked "So...noone will die anymore?" and as Death nodded solemnly he blurted out "Yes! What are you waiting for? Do it" and Death did... Seconds later the doc got an emergency call and dashed off. There had been a major accident with many victims, terribly wounded and screaming in agony. What was strange was that some of them had no pulse anymore and still lived and cried in pain. And it dawned on the young doc what this had to mean. He ran out of the ER, searched the whole hospital for the man who called himself Death, to find him on the roof standing at the edge with a rose in his hands and looking into the sky. The doc ran up to him and told him he had to resume his work. Death asked him if he was serious and he approved. He had learned that people not dying more didn´t mean people wouldn´t get hurt anymore and it was therefore no use. And death resumed his work letting the rose in his hand wither. By that the young doc suddenly cried out in pain grabbing his head and swaying. Death slowly let him lower himself onto a bench that was standing there and he sat cradling his head and moaning... and suddenly it was over. He stood up and looked at the man before him, obviously confused. Death told him to turn around and as he did so he could see ...himself lying on the bench unmoving. "What is this?!" he asked Death exasperated. "You´re dead" the man stated "it was aneurysma, the headache you had all the time" and he rememberd. He had indeed had a headache but had put it off for lack of sleep. Before he and Death left for the next world he had one last question; if Death had quit his business already when he had saved that man earlier and Death told him with a smile "he wouldn´t have lived without you" And with that they walked right off the roof top and through air until they vanished in the far distance...
(there was more stuff but I don´t remember every detail)

So? How did ya like the story? As I said, I love it... it´s really thought provoking. I really admire the writers of The Twilight Zone for their stories. It´s not the only one that amazed me...and I get the feeling it won´t be the last.

Oh crap...it´s late already and I still gotta cram for school so...I´ll write the rest tomorrow. About the weekend, my weird dreams and especially about a movie I sacrifized precious sleeping time for last night (I got three hours total ^^°): Memento!

So be prepared, muahahaha...ahem ^^
*waves*

Well...I´ll call it one.
Okay, I didn´t do as much today as I had wanted to but at least, I did something!

Before that... I had some strange dreams tonight. Why am I talking about it? Because I normally don´t have that vivid dreams, and I usually don´t remember them after waking up.
So, dream #1: I don´t remember as much as I did after I had woken up, but there is something left. What I can recall is, that it was about and with the people of Navy CIS... and they had a whole lot of doubles. And it was a freaking suspensful and interesting story! I wish I could remember! After I had woken up I wanted to write an NCIS fanfiction of it, but I think I can cancel that now *sighs*
Okay dream #2: It was about me, my (real) Dad and some other people I don´t remember clearly. We were on a huge and veeeery long road with lots of tunnel segments. But unfortunately that road wasn´t finished so we had to return and go back at some point. This was when there were suddenly tornados...mini-tornados actually, all over the place. We ran for our lifes and those tornados kept lifting us into the air and dropped us just seconds later. Luckily and unrealistically none of us got hurt. We did come into some town in the end but I don´t remember anything more after that...
And the best thing about those dreams: I can even explain how they might have formed! Haha!
For the first one: Navy CIS was running on TV that evening (but I just watched bits of it cuz I knew that episode) and on Sunday there was a movie called "The Third Twin" which I actually
didn´t watch but I read the book from Ken Follett some time ago. It is about a man who realizes he has not only two doubles, but 8 in the end. So this is where the doubles might come from!
For dream number2 I can say that I watched CSI Miami yesterday and the story was about the aftermath of a Hurricane which brought along some tornados as well. And there were people flying through air, so what else do I have to say? And why my Dad? Cuz Im going to see him on Saturday! Ha, that was easy...it usually isn´t cuz my dreams are really really weird!

Come to speak of TV shows! I watched Dr.House yesterday and I´m really falling in love with this series! The characters are pretty deep and the stories are always very interesting, suspensful and surprising! Not to mention how emotional they can be. I will keep an eye on that show!

So what did I do today aside from watching TV. Well, I read...again. I´m addicted to fanfictions ^^; I should be reading books for school *smacks herself* Will do! I still have a few days left. I just today realized that I won´t have school on Monday! Yay! =D
But hey, I´ve also been somewhat prolific (compared to the last days)! I drew a pic of my three plush wolfies which I´m going to color both on PC and with Copics =) It turned out really sweet. I´m planning to draw some random funny comics featuring my plushy pack and me. =3
AND I worked on my animation assignment! Gosh, this certain shot is becoming a real pain in the ass for me! I can´t wait to have it finished. Got positiv feedback for the progress so I can hope it´ll be done soon! *phew*

Hmmm, I had Döner for lunch and it was delicious! I love Döner *drool* And it was almost everything I ate today. Only some chocolate this afternoon. That´s weird...I mean for me! But I don´t complain ^^ that´s actually really good!

Okay, what else...no, I think that´s basically it for today =)
I really enjoy writing this!

Lyriks of the day...hm´I think I´ll take "Everything Burns" by Anastacia and Ben Moody (who is that guy? He has a great voice!) cuz I love that song. It´s pretty sad and emotional and I like that kind of songs.

Anastacia ~ Everything Burns

he sits in her corner
Singing herself to sleep
Wrapped in all of the promises
That no one seems to keep
She no longer cries to herself
No tears left to wash away
Just diaries of empty pages
Feelings gone astray
But she will sing...

Til everything burns
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all down
As my anger reigns
Til everything burns
Ooh, oh

Walking through life unnoticed
Knowing that no one cares
Too consumed in their masquerade
No one sees her there
And still she sings...

Til everything burns
While everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all down
As my anger reigns

Til everything burns
Everything burns
(Everything burns)
Everything burns
Watching it all fade away
(All fade away)
Everyone screams
Everyone screams
(Watching it all fade away)
Oooh, oh
(While everyone screams)
Burning down lies
Burning my dreams
(All of this hate)
And all of this pain
I'll burn it all down
As my anger reigns
Til everything burns
(Everything burns)
Watching it all fade away
(Oooh, ooh)
(Everything burns)
Watching it all fade away

Oh well...
I should be so happy, ya know...but I am not. *sighs*
I went to see the doc today and he prescribed me some meds and took me off school for the rest of the week. I should be like YAY no school!!! But well... I´m thinking of what I´m going to miss in school that´ll propably be valuable in the next test, let alone that I´ll miss a big test on Friday. But I know it wouldn´t do me too good if I went to school, either. I´ll have to inform properly about what I miss.
What makes me feel even more queasy is that I already spent two days of this week doing nothing... really nothing but reading, chating and watching TV. I feel so guilty somehow cuz I should really be doing other stuff! And it´s not that I don´t have the time... I just lack motivation to start anything right now... I should work on my animations and I want to... but I can´t seem to get a hold of myself ans start it! *hrmph* >_>
I have to do something about this...it happens way too often lately. Everytime I seem to get something like a routine, when I get a grip on my life, something destroys it... and I need that equilibrium so badly ;_; It´s not that I don´t want to be spontaneous, I really like that... but I need a solid ground to stand on. And it´s my task to create said ground. There´s noone I can blame for this...it´s really all my fault and even that was hard to realize and accept at first.
I´ll have to work on myself a lot, no I want to! I can´t go on like this...
I´ll start tomorrow with finishing those darn animations! Jakka! Wish me luck or better motivation!
(Hey, it´s a good sign already that I wrote LJ today ;)

Here are the lyriks of the day: a wonderful ballad from the Dream Theater album "Scenes from a memory". One of the very few songs that actually made me cry...

Dream Theater ~ Through her eyes

She never really had a chance
On that fateful moonlight night
Sacrificed without a fight
A victim of her circumstances

Now that I`ve become aware
And I`ve exposed this tragedy
A sadness grows inside of me
It all seems so unfair

I`m learning all about my life
By looking through her eyes

Just beyond the churchyard gates
Where the grass is overgrown
I saw her writing on her stone
I felt like I would suffocate

In loving memory of our child
So innocent, eyes open wide
I felt so empty as I cried
Like part of me had died

And as her image
Wandered through my head
I wept just like a baby
As I lay awake in bed

And I know what it`s like
To lose someone you love
And this felt just the same

She wasn`t given any choice
Desperation stole her voice
I`ve been given so much more in life
I`ve got a son, I`ve got a wife

I had to suffer one last time
To grieve for her and say goodbye
Relive the anguish of my past
To find out who I was at last

The door has opened wide
I`m turning with the tide
Looking through her eyes

Two months since I wrote my last entry here *sighs*
So why´s that? Partly because I was busy, partly because I simply didn´t feel like writing something up.
But there´s been so much happening in the past two months!
So I think I´ll just sum up in a short way:
-> I finally got a lighttable and I love that thing! It´s huge and yet it was so cheap! Thanks to ebay =) The lucky thing about it was that I could get it: It was for pick up only and it was located in Cologne which is in fact very far away from where I live BUT my Dad was on a tradeshow in Cologne and was therefore able to pick it up when he came back home! HORAY!
-> I went to Vienna in Spring Break together with two of my best friends to visit friends. It was one of the most wonderful weekends I´ve had in my life! We made a radio show called "Roaroing Radio" and it was so much fun! *dances* We went to the Prater, an amusement park in Vienna and had a lot of fun there too...we did so much together, too much to actually write down everything here. In the end Taibu gave me a stuffed wolf and man, was I happy! It´s my second stuffed wolf and the second one I got from a very dear friend *snuggles the wolf* I called here Vivien in reference to her coming from Vienna =)
-> One week after spring break there was an extended weekend and I had my dear friend Skadi visit me. We had a great time that weekend and at the with fire on Sunday. And I got my third stuffed wolf from her! I love it ^,^ I called him Scot as she brought him from her trip to Scotland in February =)
-> That weekend was also the first time a boy actually approached to me... I knew him already. He plays in my Dad´s handball team and has visited us a few times already and well he got intrested in me...or so he told me. Well, we exchanged cell numbers and met the next day to have a little walk. He seemed really nice and I really thought there might be something developping...We went to the cinema the Friday after that and watched Mission Impossible3 (nice movie btw, very suspensful) and all that stuff... but then he didn´t call or write an SMS for almost a week and I got pissed. We met oly once since then and I´m getting the idea that we just don´t match...we have like nothing in common actually.
So I think this might be it...I´m no longer interested in him *shrugs*
Was a nice feeling to be noticed by a guy (espacially a cuty like him), though :)

I just yesterday came back from Dresden where I was visiting Skadi.
I got there last Wednesday, my Mom even called me in sick in school, yay! So I didn´t have to go on that terrible excursion to Jena XP. Anyways, I had a great time there! We went to the movies and watched X-Men 3 and it was so awesome!!! Thanks for the great time, Skadi! *huggles*
The only problem... I must´ve caugt a cold on the first excursion on Tuesday. It started on Thursday with a sore throat and got worse by the day. So yesterday I just felt like crap and today my Mom called me in sick again, only that now I´m relly sick LOL. I developped a cough over the day and it´s literally a pain in the ass ^^° I´m gonna see the doc tomorrow cuz we´re out of meds.
I watched the whole anime series of Chrno Crusade today and it was awesome! Thanks to you, Neo that I could watch it *hugs*

Well...that´s basically it. Not much, eh? ^^
May sound like I had tons of fun over the past months...well, I had but I didn´t report over the bad things, consciously that is.

I gotta go to bed now *coughs*
See ya soon! (Hopefully ^^°)

I know the week´s not over yet but luckily the worst part is! *sighs*
I was so busy, I didn´t even have time to write my LJ entries nor to go to the gym...
So here's my survey for the week:

Monday:
Big test in chemistry, it went well but I´m not too sure of that =/
Arrved at home from school at 4pm. Spent the afternoon with English homework (1st part) and the evening with learning for the geography test.
Went to sleep around 12pm

Tuesday:
Test in geography, I think it went well too but I´m not sure again ^^°
Arrived at home from school at 4:30pm.
Spent the afternoon with the 2nd part of my english class homework. We had to prepare a lesson for a 7th graders class.
I had my first chat rpg meeting with the new rpg I´m in (Acheronian-Clan). It was really nice but way too short :( Can´t wait for next Tuesday =D
Went to sleep around 12pm again after watching TV.

Wednesday:
No test in school omg O.O* And I could go home earlier because our history teacher had a meeting.
So I arrived home at 4pm. Spent the afternoon working on a pic for my father (the mascot of the firm he works in) and designing a new wolf character ^,^ I love character design!
Acheronian Chat meeting in the evening but I left early at 9pm because I still had to cram tons of biology for the big test on Thursday...I nearly panicked, it was so much >_< Typical me! Starting to learn when it´s nearly too late x.x I gotta get rid of that habit!
Learned till 12pm...lacking sleep =_=

Thursday (today):
Big biology test today. Wasn´t too bad...I´ll wait how it turns out.
I could leave early and was already at home at 11am (normally it's 12am).
When I arrived home I literally fell in my bed and slept for over 1 1/2 hours until my Mum came home with my lunch ^,^ I still feel tired but a lot more relaxed now.
So now I´m going to go shopping with my Mum.
I have to finish my ink drawing today, but I don´t worry to much about it. I think it´ll take about 4-5 hours. And today´s NCIS on TV, yay x3
I´ll have a philosophy test tomorrow but as I have spare hours every Friday before philosophy I don´t have to learn today! *dances*

I´m so glad all the stress is over...next week I have no tests at all and Neo's coming back! Yay! Fun week x3

(amendment for the weekend)

So it was a busy weekend as I prognosed! But it was way better than I thought.
First I slept veeery late to get rid of my tiredness and well it worked but for the con half of the day was already over.
Nya, anyway this weekend my parents renovated our living room. So I buzzed off as soon as possible x3
I had an appointment with my friend Neomae this day. We wanted to sculpt with "Keramiton". And so we did and it was so fun! ^,^ I made two wolf heads, one of me and one of my "Wolf" movie animation character Shadow.
Neo made a Gargoyle head for her boyfriend.
Sunday, I slept in again and spent half of the afternoon working on my ink drawing for art class and elaborating for geography class (test on Tuesday).
Around 4pm Neo came over and helped me with the rest of the geo-stuff.
After that we painted the keramiton heads with acrylic paint and copic markers. They turned out pretty good, imo -> http://www.deviantart.com/view/30919763/ , http://www.deviantart.com/view/30919614/
Our neighbors were visiting us and they had brought their little (stupid) son Justin. He came up into my room to look what we were doing. Spotting the heads he said "oh that looks beautiful!" and looking closer at Neo´s Garoyle he added "and the cow's cute, too!" ...that was funny at the moment. But Neo obviously didn´t take it so well...I´m sorry! I shouldn´t have laughed or made fun of it...Oh Neo, it was just a stupid lil kid! How was he supposed to recognize a gargoyle? I doubt he even realized my heads were wolves! *hugs you*

Well and in the evening I had to cram for chemistry because we wrote a big test on Monday.
(It went well over all but I´m not sure...I´ll see what´s the result.)

...yeah, that´s what I am right now! So damn tired =.=

So today´s happenings:
I got back my essay about Goethe´s Faust after two weeks.
Woah, our teacher bitched about our whole class like half an hour O.o I really thought I´d have like 6-8 points! OMG *faint* But I got 11 points! *phew* second best result.
My teacher actually complimented my essay! O.O She NEVER did that before! And she asked me if I wuld reas it to the class on Monday... I still don´t get why she didn´t ask the girl who got 13 points...weird
But I´m not complaining ^^
Rest of school was pretty normal...only 3 classes today.
Visited my dear friend Neomae in the afternoon and we had some fun and a nice talk.
So overall it was a good day.
Only that I skipped gym again because I´m so tired and my back still hurts...

Now I´m sitting here, waiting for Neo to send me a song ^,^
The first single of Germany´s new "Superstar" Tobias Regner. I totally love that song and the singer of course <3

So today´s fav lyrics are:

Tobias Regner ~ I still burn

I could say I feel allright
I could say I’m sleeping through the night
I could say I haven’t thought about you – about you
You have always hide a way
of seeing through the crazy things I say
Like I’m better off without you –
but without you the truth is

I still burn like the sun
raging fire in my blood
I’m tired of living in a lie
I still crush at the thought
that I used to be the beat of your heart
Oh Baby it hurts
Cause I still burn – I still burn

I remember when the lights went out
And the world forgot to turn around
And everything was closing in on me – on me
I swore that I would make it through
I wouldn't hit the ground because of you
That was a promise I couldn’t keep
can't you see, yeah

I still burn like the sun
raging fire in my blood
I’m tired of living in a lie
I still crush at the thought
that I used to be the beat of your heart
Oh Baby it hurts

Cause I still burn

At the mention of your name
And the picture of your face
it's a heat I can’t escape

I still burn like the sun
raging fire in my blood

I still crush at the thought
that I used to be the beat of your heart
Oh baby it hurts
ohhhh, oh baby it hurts
Cause I still burn
I burn
cause I still burn.

*loves the chorus*

Hey there!
Wooh, I completely revised the design of my liveJournal today because I didn´t really like the first one. It took me about two hours but now I´m satisfied, ...for now ;)

So about today...
I totally screwed up my math test, couldn´t solve half of the tasks *sighs* Even though I´m good at maths and I understood everything and so on...seems like, it just wasn´t my day. I hope I´ll still get 7 or 8 points *prays*
Being so lazy today -.- I skipped gym and sat here since I came home at 12am only playing around with my LJ.
But I do have an excuse for skipping gym; My right shoulder aches and makes snapping noises when I move it... Man, my back´s a wreck! ^^°
I really gotta do some art stuff... animation and storyboards for "Wolf", kiribans and art trades for dA, the maskot of my Dad´s firm and the Indian ink drawing for art class. Not to mention all the school stuff *bleh*
Looks like I´ll have a busy weekend ^^;
Though I´ll be able to do some things tomorrow in my free periods, most probably the Indian ink drawing.

I´m planning on adding some special stuff to my journal, like a daily scrap or today´s fav lyrics... would be fun but depends on how often I´m going to post here...

Atm, I´m constantly listening to Stratovarius... what a great band! I love their music *sings loud and wrong*
So today´s fav lyrics are:

Stratovarius ~ Freedom

I set my goals higher everyday I make my own rules that
I will obey as long as I live
This is the life I was born to lead
Unique chance for me to express myself
And fullfill my dreams
Ch.:I'm in control of this ship of mine
And everything will be just fine
Like the wind I'm free to go anywhere
I got my song, it dances in the air
Now I know what I?ll do with my life
So you will hear my freedom call
All those bad times I?ve had in my life
Change into blessings if I change the point of view I needed them to grow
I've changed so much, I'm finally free
To do what I want without any fear and quilt It's so amazing
Ch.: I'm in control...
Like the wind...

YAY! My first post in a live journal evaa! *dances*
Ok...*cough* I have no idea what to say right now... no wait! There is something:
First off; what made me create a livejournal account? Neo did! She created one herself today and showed it to me and I really liked the idea and ,more importantly, the design ^.^
So here´s my realm! Mwahaha...ahem
Secondly; why am I writing in English even though I´m German? I love the english language and I love writing and talking in English so why not practise it with this journal? ;) Please be merciful if I make mistakes, thanks! ´m not perfect ;)
I still might write in German sometimes ,though... when I feel like it *shrugs*

Okay, so one uses a journal to write down the happenings of the day, right?
Well, here they come...
What absolutely made my day today was when I got my test (a pretty important one, mind you) back in art class. 15 points! The best result possible *boogie* Me ish so happy ^,^
Second thing, of course, is this live journal! I love new things *hehe* and there are so many settings to play around with.

Oki, enough for the first entry. I gotta go an take a last look at my math stuff... test tomorrow x_x
Plus I´m terribly tired.

Seeya
~Chi

note: "lorem ipsum" is latin for "this is a test file" ^^